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tonewlengths) wrote2013-04-27 09:58 am
tonewlengths) wrote2013-04-27 09:58 am
Memory 21, Mother knows best
Form: A bunch of ripe cherries (1/3)
What it is:
What she learned:
- She needs to take things less seriously
- And she should really stop mumbling
- Gosh look at all her annoying habits laid out bare
- Mother knows best :( BUT... BUT MAYBE SHE DOESN'T...
- Mother thinks she's weak and unable to handle anything and is too stupid and clumsy to manage in the outside world, WELL. WELL NOBODY IN AATHER THINKS THAT. MAYBE.
- Well maybe some people think she's naive and silly oh :(
- And she is pretty clumsy, can't even walk in shoes properly. So it's be underdressed forever or be a clumsy weirdo who can't walk, even Mau can walk properly she sucks :(
- Gothel told her never to ask to leave the tower, that's... That's technically not lying, but still betrayal of trust.
- Looks like locking people up in the dark and taunting them from the shadows about their worst fears and self worth issues is a totally legit parenting strategy
There have been snippets of this emotional abuse in her other memories, Gothel constantly makes jokes at Rapunzel's expense and undermines her confidence, convincing her she's useless and silly and can't do anything without Mother there to protect her. It's always been present in her mind since her third memory, and now in this memory it's all pushed up to the 11 to keep Rapunzel from wanting to leave. Her recent memories have her standing up to Gothel and getting nice things, standing up for yourself works! And in her earlier Aather development, Bubbles gained a lot of confidence. She had Sapphire as a base of safety and trust! She had freedom and could have fun and bad things hardly ever happened, sometimes her teammates memories were sad but she could help them through it. If there were upsetting games, they could overcome them. It was awesome!
Since getting back, however, there have been a lot of setbacks. The concept of Sapphire was broken by new teammates who didn't seem to want anything to do with her, people got hurt and stabbed a lot and Aather became a far more dangerous place. People died. In her arms! She's a magical healing life source and she couldn't do anything to help keep anyone alive. She couldn't help Red in Autumn's heart game when he was getting attacked by creepy Noah, Apple got hurt and she thinks it's her fault AGAIN. And then Mother's game happeed and a whole bunch of people got hurt, the way Gothel raised her Rapunzel thinks any bad things that happen are down to her. It's all her fault, she's too weak to do anything but get people hurt for her, she always makes other people the bad guy, etc. etc.
Bubbles loves Apple and Selenia but they both consistently manage to ping her in the emotional abuse, it's completely by accident but they do. She loves Berry but Berry REALLY hits her self esteem issues, Berry is wonderful and kind and honourable and Bubbles is terrified she'll find out she cavorts with thieves and lies and blackmails and will turn against her. She is not Good Enough. And while she wants to be friends with Yuki, and thinks he's nice and fun to play around with, she gets the distinct impression that he just doesn't care about her. Selenia told her that Icicle was not nice and while Bubbles doesn't want to believe that, she's still worried she'll say or do the wrong thing and he'll stop playing with her altogether. Bubbles has a lot of anxiety and worries and paranoia, and with Mother's game that reinforced so much of her damaging world view. People got beaten, some because of her and her thieving, she was punished for it and tried to get others punished so of course she deserves to get hit, mother knows best, but nobody else deserved such a harsh punishment. Bubbles feels horrible about it, she thought it was a harmless game so she misbehaved and others suffered for her crimes, and then Apple freaked out about her getting hurt and shut down when she tried to talk about Apple's feelings, which stung as another rejection, another instance of her screwing up. Gosh she sure can't do anything right lately!
So, unfortunately, Bubbles is not in a place where she can argue against all Gothel said in this memory. Her naivety was dangerous, her annoying personality is upsetting, her immaturity and inability to behave is a threat to her relationships. She's putting herself back in that box of 'mother was right, I never should have done this, everything is my fault', this memory won't even be a surprise. And she'll still smile and move on despite being so very sad inside because she's used to this, this is all normal so why wouldn't she act as normal. But she is in a very bad place and feeling inferior and useless and needs to get out and DO something helpful. Unfortunately it's exam period and so she's due for a persona napping, I won't be able to play her getting a much needed pick me up until next month.
What it is:
What she learned:
- She needs to take things less seriously
- And she should really stop mumbling
- Gosh look at all her annoying habits laid out bare
- Mother knows best :( BUT... BUT MAYBE SHE DOESN'T...
- Mother thinks she's weak and unable to handle anything and is too stupid and clumsy to manage in the outside world, WELL. WELL NOBODY IN AATHER THINKS THAT. MAYBE.
- Well maybe some people think she's naive and silly oh :(
- And she is pretty clumsy, can't even walk in shoes properly. So it's be underdressed forever or be a clumsy weirdo who can't walk, even Mau can walk properly she sucks :(
- Gothel told her never to ask to leave the tower, that's... That's technically not lying, but still betrayal of trust.
- Looks like locking people up in the dark and taunting them from the shadows about their worst fears and self worth issues is a totally legit parenting strategy
There have been snippets of this emotional abuse in her other memories, Gothel constantly makes jokes at Rapunzel's expense and undermines her confidence, convincing her she's useless and silly and can't do anything without Mother there to protect her. It's always been present in her mind since her third memory, and now in this memory it's all pushed up to the 11 to keep Rapunzel from wanting to leave. Her recent memories have her standing up to Gothel and getting nice things, standing up for yourself works! And in her earlier Aather development, Bubbles gained a lot of confidence. She had Sapphire as a base of safety and trust! She had freedom and could have fun and bad things hardly ever happened, sometimes her teammates memories were sad but she could help them through it. If there were upsetting games, they could overcome them. It was awesome!
Since getting back, however, there have been a lot of setbacks. The concept of Sapphire was broken by new teammates who didn't seem to want anything to do with her, people got hurt and stabbed a lot and Aather became a far more dangerous place. People died. In her arms! She's a magical healing life source and she couldn't do anything to help keep anyone alive. She couldn't help Red in Autumn's heart game when he was getting attacked by creepy Noah, Apple got hurt and she thinks it's her fault AGAIN. And then Mother's game happeed and a whole bunch of people got hurt, the way Gothel raised her Rapunzel thinks any bad things that happen are down to her. It's all her fault, she's too weak to do anything but get people hurt for her, she always makes other people the bad guy, etc. etc.
Bubbles loves Apple and Selenia but they both consistently manage to ping her in the emotional abuse, it's completely by accident but they do. She loves Berry but Berry REALLY hits her self esteem issues, Berry is wonderful and kind and honourable and Bubbles is terrified she'll find out she cavorts with thieves and lies and blackmails and will turn against her. She is not Good Enough. And while she wants to be friends with Yuki, and thinks he's nice and fun to play around with, she gets the distinct impression that he just doesn't care about her. Selenia told her that Icicle was not nice and while Bubbles doesn't want to believe that, she's still worried she'll say or do the wrong thing and he'll stop playing with her altogether. Bubbles has a lot of anxiety and worries and paranoia, and with Mother's game that reinforced so much of her damaging world view. People got beaten, some because of her and her thieving, she was punished for it and tried to get others punished so of course she deserves to get hit, mother knows best, but nobody else deserved such a harsh punishment. Bubbles feels horrible about it, she thought it was a harmless game so she misbehaved and others suffered for her crimes, and then Apple freaked out about her getting hurt and shut down when she tried to talk about Apple's feelings, which stung as another rejection, another instance of her screwing up. Gosh she sure can't do anything right lately!
So, unfortunately, Bubbles is not in a place where she can argue against all Gothel said in this memory. Her naivety was dangerous, her annoying personality is upsetting, her immaturity and inability to behave is a threat to her relationships. She's putting herself back in that box of 'mother was right, I never should have done this, everything is my fault', this memory won't even be a surprise. And she'll still smile and move on despite being so very sad inside because she's used to this, this is all normal so why wouldn't she act as normal. But she is in a very bad place and feeling inferior and useless and needs to get out and DO something helpful. Unfortunately it's exam period and so she's due for a persona napping, I won't be able to play her getting a much needed pick me up until next month.